I think I never really gave much thought to the negativity and cynism that I exude until lately, when ZJ mentions it... Growing up has really left me a cynic, as I come to face with the harsh reality... But sometimes I really need to hope against hope as it is the only thing I can do which is more productive than worrying... I shall quit worrying!
well, I dunno why but after the wave of events subsided with the end of last week, I feel this calmness that I haven't felt for a long time... Like suddenly stress is so distant, as if I never felt it before... Dunno if it's due to the vit c and b pills that I started taking... haha really weird... I just hope that it will be like this till the end of exams as it means i'm going to do well.. Nowadays, I really screw up my tests not cos I dunno but cos I was too stressed and nervous... It's funny how I can feel like this when I probably took like 1000s of tests by now haha
Yea and the calmness helps me accomplish more things than before... last weekend I managed to finish 3 assignments! plus I finally was able to do Cn2116 when usually I just copy blindly hahah this is a good sign man... But dunno why I get tired easily these days... weird... I sleep like at least 8hrs already hmm...
Oh and why was I able to do many things last weekend? cos my sis had chicken pox and I never had b4 so to not get it, the closest I got to home is the void deck where my mum passed me my washed clothes... so cham hahah but being in hall, away from humans and distraction really gave me more than 24 hrs a day heheh
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