SaF mErIt ScHolArShiP

I think the fact that I have been provisionally accepted for SMS may come as a shock to some of u, as it has been for me. I cant believe man i've simply breeze thru the selection, maybe except for my medical, cos' my hearing test screwed up and my eyes are inherently bad... but i'm still stuck at the crossroad, dunno if I shud sign on. sigh... but I really hope to go overseas for my studies, afterall i've already invested so much time, effort and money in my applications... hai some pple tell me not to hesitate while some ask me not to join... I really dunno what to think man

but maybe the gd thing is that my rgs track fren sihan is enlisted with me as well! :) looking forward to her company in bmt... and I heard the pay is really good, $1300 monthly, with pay rise pending... but sometimes I really wonder if the monetary compensating differential is really worth the while... I guess I'll jus go for bmt and have fun first haahaaa... scully my results cant even make it man

Back to something more salient, I'm really saddened by the Earthquakes and tsunamis disasters... Singapore is jus so lucky.... Hope that the death tolls will stop rising... oh my family almost went to thailand this year... phew :P let us pray for the disaster victims... I wish I could do more. like raise funds for them but time is running out

till 10 jan, I've 2 weeks of freedom left... gonna make full use of my time to spend with my family and frens... gosh then 3 weeks cannot come out... I still cant believe I gonna experience the life of an ns guy... haa and I'll experience it before my guy... and my greatest wish is that I wun become too manly after the experience man, I'm man enough liao hahaa hope to preserve my feminine side as much as possible hahah... maybe the saddest thing is that I can't continue to teach my tutee Weihao... goonna miss him so much... I'm so grateful that Cheuk Ka agrees to help me out :)

There're so many what ifs in my mind now... What if a war really broke out? Am I prepared to lay my life for the country? What if they make me do things against my conscience? will I rise above the evils or would I succumb? But if a war breaks out, I want to protect my country, my family and my home... Jus dun wanna die la hahah but if they force me to betray my frens or something, I will never budge... I hate this point of my life now

And come 2 jan, I hope to organise a last class outing at my house... to see the guys and myself off haha... gonna clean up my house and give it a face lift! so exciting haha... hey if u r my classmate reading this, try to volunteer to help with the food k? hehe call me!