HaPpy ChInEsE nEw YeAr!

yea yea yea! i'm home at last... this week gonna be the best week of the year cos i'm only in safti for 2 out of 7 days haha but it feels kinda funny at home cos i'm not being pushed around to do this do that. slacking at home is not my forte so i've been running around doing stuff that i often have no time to in safti :) i get to chat with my parents and joke with them and man, it's therapectic... not that my life in sierra wing isn't great, it's jus so different..

though i've only been in ocs for 2 days since i booked out, a wealth of things had happened... well, mon we only had swimming lesson and it was like no activities the whole day, with lecture and social grooming cancelled. but i still think that was the day when i learnt the most... haha the funniest thing is that it all began with us disobeying the rules and falling asleep in the middle of the afternoon. apparently, my mdm sneaked upstairs and caught us red handed, though none of us knew that she snooped around our rooms. we're knocked out like dead pigs... and out of the blue, she gave us ten mins to go downstairs in our full battle order and i realised immediately that she caught us sleeping! so she reprimanded us and made us do push ups but the most hilarious thing is that i was exempted cos i'm on antibiotics... i told her that i shudn't be excused cos i dun think antibiotics caused drowsiness but she was adamant. as i witnessed my platoon mates get punished, i felt so bad, wanted so much to suffer with them. but most imptly, i realised how i shud have listened to my conscience and prepare the face the consequences that i knew very well would result when we disobeyed orders like this. after a month of being a soldier, i felt quite ashamed that we're still doing things as we like.. do we need more time or do we really lack the discipline? only time will tell... and meanwhile, i shall try my very best to be a good soldier...

to redeem our mistakes, we had to do area cleaning and this time, all of us worked together to clean up the mess we had landed in. after a hell of effort and toil, my mdm was pleased with the state of cleanliness of our bunks and area, smiling once again. it was as if the sleeping incident din take place and my platoon simply rejoiced in pride and happiness... it's really amazing how different things turned out in the end...no matter wat, i hope that this experience will spur us onwards as officers to be :)

then yesterday, we had the worst training nightmare of our life. wat seemed to be a harmless standard obstacle course time trial escalated into a strenuous interval training. basically, it comprises of 3 more rounds of running and crossing the obstacles, 1 round of perfecting the crossing of obstacles, uncountable number of pushups and innumerable times of sprinting to a far wall and back... my heart was beating so fast and my sweat glands working so hard that i had to scream to relieve the lactic acid and pain searing thru my being... sure the adrenaline set in after a while but nothing can soothe the permanent ache in my muscles now... but thru this trying experience, i learnt the true imptance of endurance and determination... without these, i shall jus succumb and fail my test of character. and the other good thing? soc is becoming more like a playgrd! haha...

oh rite, i'm like kinda tired after recounting these enervating memories so i gtg... tmr gonna meet julia and my classmates! cool hahah i love chinese new year haha

liFe In OcS

looks like i got to clear up the cobwebs not only in my bunk but also on my blog. haha been rather unlucky recently... hammered my finger, lost my ic, knocked my head, injured my shin, all in addition to my ankle, knee and elbow injuries... i hope all will change for the better in the new lunar year man... maybe the only good thing is that i'm selected to run for ocs for the navy relay hahah hope i can make it!

well, i dunno if i'm repeating myself, but if i go with the intention of learning to be a better person, i think i have achieved tat... maybe not that gd yet but my endurance level is definitely climbing up... the ability to think fast and act fast... responsibility... i think i'm improving in these areas... but to be honest, i kept harbouring criticisms towards some gals there. some whom i think are trying to break down the integrity of my platoon. i hope one day i can have the courage to stand up and tell them off that if they dun like certain pple, they shud voice it out. at least that person can change for the better and not be kept in the dark, suffering discrimination. from my experience in camp, i realised how hurtful it is to be at the receiving end of gossips, not that i'm the receiver or the completely guiltless party. but really charlene, i know how u feel then :( i'm sorry i din do much to help u

most pple think that gals have the time of their life in army, as compared to the guys... i wun deny that but i think we have our share of woes too... but like never before, i realise the importance of confidence and optimism... if i din have that i think i'll jus succumb... but i'm really happy all these is happening to me, giving me a chance to learn at a dynamic pace... life is short, unpredictable... i'll treasure it