growing up...

i suddenly felt that all of a sudden, i'm expected to grow up, take up more responsibilities and handle more work, sometimes more than i could ever handle... i know i'm being pessimistic but why the hell did i think that life could be easy? i'm wrong to wish that i would grow up faster.. it's better to be young man... i may be ignorant but ignorance is bliss... haha

to be truthful, the week had sped by faster than ever but not without hitches like times when i wonder if i made the right choice... hate learning all the weapons but luckily i can sorta kiss the tests goodbye... but somehow i managed to score full marks for one of the tests haha... weird... if i dunno the power of optimism, i realised the true miracle of it now. my platoon guys can always think of funny things out of the most irritating or boring situations and for that i take my hat off them. i used to be like that but nowadays i'm just getting easily depressed... hope it's only for a short period cos i still have a long way to go till june man...

yea and how i hate the phrase "grass is always greener on the other side"... going to navy makes me long for army but back in army makes me peer back to navy... really have to stop looking back but i just cant help it sometimes... but at least i have come to the conclusion that i would shine more in army then in navy and i may not like being a naval officer next time... jus have to take thing one at a time now... being stretched to the limit the whole can be real tiring though... hai

it's field camp next week... guess it's stressing everyone... this weekend book out seemed more impt than ever but our instructor purposely held us back... at his mercy... ... jus some of the things to remind me of navy hahah but i must say i like the previous part about coordinating with my section mates for the map drawing and planning... it's like i feel so involved and in control... i need more of this to go on man... haha... but damn tired now... gonna rest... wish me strength and luck in field camp! (my ankle jus got twisted again... sighz)