I got my driving license

Today gotta be one of the best days in my life... I got my driving license at last! after all the tough time trying to get enough money for the lessons, the trying experiences to concentrate on the road and all the sleep that has been lost last night, I finally passed... But I think it's partly due to luck too... it's damn weird tat I had been chosen as the last person in my test grp and it turned out that there were insufficent testers so I had to wait until the first person returns... So it offered me some time to relax and calm down... But i was summoned soon after and the tester looks really stern and serious... I just told myself to calm down or at least have a calm composure... But my legs were shaking beyond my belief as i tried to do directional change etc but it became better after a while... wat nearly ruined me is my vertical parking cos I began too far from the centreline... the tester even said my parking was bad... then on the road everything was fine except that i tried to cut another lorry so i can be in time to uturn back hhah and on my way back i tot i was doomed cos i mistakenly saw that he ticked a circle(for immediate failure)... I never felt so sad when i drove back but nevertheless, putting up a strong front... Until I sat at the table before him I had no idea that I was going to pass... hahah Wat a pleasant surprise... maybe lenience hides behind a stern visage too heheh

oh well, i can forget abt driving lessons and start to mug and feel guiltless when i shop with my hard earned money =] *heaved a sigh of relief*

Zj looking cool in his sunglasses

Clara n I

Clara and Brina 

let work fill the void...

Zj has just left for 3 days but i'm wishing that time passes more quickly already... received only2 msgs from him so far and he's fallen quite ill with food poisoning... poor thing... but i still have 18 more days to wait for before i can see him again... hahah hope that i can do something fruitful during the time of his absence... i'll be strong! anyway, my driving exam is like drawing nearer and nearer... je suis sur de reussir! i'm sure i can pass this time! hahah... it's like my second greatest wish now, next to doing well in my studies of course...

Went for clara's birthday party yest and it was really nice seeing her again! i guess it's the only activity that kept my sanity this weekend cos i did nothing else but sleeping, eating and burying myself in my work... but the irony is that i couldn't do anymore than writing a few equations in my tutorials cos it's jus so damn hard... esp thermodynamics... all the stupid derivations and maths bloody hell hhaha there's jus so many times that i wish i din choose chem engineering...

French test in 4 days! i really wish to do well this time, jus to secure something better than a B+ for it this sem... wonder how the cohort is doing on the whole actually hmmm... and i'm still wondering if i shud take french 4 cos i'm worried tat i dun clear enuff modules by the time i leave for NOC... but french has become a sorta passion for me, like the way running was... haiz hate dilemmas...

Dread...

Mid term tests have preyed upon our self confidence but silently slipped away... so the finals loom once again in the corner, hoping to strip away the last shreds of dignity we have.... haha
i'm really pessimistic but 'pensive' these days... penser means think in french so guess the meaning of the second word... I've started to wonder about life and what i've been doing... somehow this fire is being put out in me and also as my goals and priorities start to evolve... i've become a different person, one whom sometimes i dun even recognise...

anyway, things seem to deteriorate ever since sch starts and while good things do happen along the way, i'm jaded! this week hits an all time low when i started having conjunctivitis and a swollen out-of-proportions eyelids... everyone seems to be so busy with their stuff and for me, it seems that i'm swept into a moving train, having to just go with the flow and passing by all the different stops as everyone else... i want to get out but there're just too many pple blocking the way...

nvm if i pass my driving test on 8 nov, everything might just seem a little brighter hahah ciao!

midterm break

It's been ages since i last posted a decent blog entry so gonna write sth since it's the hols... Just returned from the Chemical and Environmental Engineering Student Society retreat seriously lacking in sleep but contented nevertheless... It's a satisfying experience when you can lead a group of enthusiasts, willing to work hard and create miracles. I truly realise the power of teamwork, so different frm my egocentred thinking a few years ago... no man is truly an island and it's in a team that things happen... yup and we managed to fulfill what we set out to do, which is a really good start for this new work year. I've a feeling that this new committee gonna be a dynamic one... we'll create a difference in the students' lives together!

I gonna start revising my driving again cos the next test gonna be on 8 nov, in about a month's time. have a dreadful feeling about it somehow, cos i really hate my driving instructor... sometimes i really wanna pass so i dun have to see him again haha he's money sucker....hahah now i need to scrimp and save to pay for the driving lessons liao haha... gonna go back to hit the books again... maybe i'll blog if tmr's driving goes fine haha