Back for the long haul

Been away for more than 2 weeks since June 19th in Europe... felt like I'm looking at life with a clearer pair of glasses now that I'm back.. It's amazing how much a break can do for a broken soul. But with greater clarity doesn't always mean my compass in life is now pointing to the right direction. I still need to figure out, anxious to find out what I really want to do. Not gonna be easy...

Some interesting things my sis wrote on her blog

http://eleventhh.blogspot.com/

lost.. like a fish in the sea

two weeks since i blogged... my life feels like it needs a good clean up, like the state of my room. what i've been doing to my room has been just throwing the litters away that are in the way, taking up the dirty laundry and wash only when the pile gets unsightly... but nothing constructive gets done and i feel like crap... need a plan but how do i start doing it and not be overwhelmed by the everyday things....

Carpe Diem

Everyday the seconds would melt into mins, and hours vanish. Suddenly I felt myself being dragged along, by the strong waves of time that so brutally tug in all directions. Where's that anchor? I need to find it soon, before I find myself bobbing endlessly in this ocean of never-ending endeavors.

A long weekend.. gone

All good things will come to an end... indeed... the 3 days of long hols are over and the horrid-some week is able to begin. Don't ask me how I know, I just know. Need to have a chat with my boss, who even appeared in my dreams haunting me, about the strategies I gonna adopt in the next few months *shudder* plus all the brochures I need to produce... crap... Gonna polish up the Voice of employees slides, which is a nightmare.  .But luckily had some divine help from my friend =) who is a some presentation slides god.. amazing...

Some things to look forward to next week? Running tomorrow with friends from company... Half day off on wed to have lunch with Sis and movie (hopefully)... France/ Italy/ Switzerland trip planning with Cat... dinner and dessert at Dampsey on Sat.. But more tuitions on Sunday =(

Guilt and remorse

In a moment I would never forget, I closed a door in my life. I realize the worst feeling in life isn't about the failures experience at work or in school but when you disappoint someone...

As an avalanche of emotions hit me like a tsunami against the peaceful shore, engulfing me... When will it subside? Or will this make me feel less guilty, that at least it makes me still human, not someone I have changed into that I can't even recognize.

A vital Need to clear sleep debt

I can't believe how quickly time has passed by... it's almost 3 months since I began working at my second company... But the sleep debt is certainly accumulating, with tuitions and meetups with friends on weekends... now another old student is requesting that I recommence tuition with him. How can I say no? sigh... I need $$ man...

Birthday Wishes!

Oh no... another year has passed by and me, another year older... No matter what, I'll still try to look at the situation optimistically, and thus my birthday wishes!

1. A new branded bag
2. Sk II Facial
3. A new watch
4. Shopping vouchers!
5. A good facial moisturiser
6. Apple iphone
7. A new nice leather wallet
8. Salsa classes

Yea that's pretty much it... =) 

Photos from CNY

Almost Killed my right hand

I also paralysed my right forearm during sleep this morning! My brain was giving up some kind of subtle signals, conjuring heart-racing type of nightmares. I dreamt that my sister and I were holidaying at this old house, where there are shuttle buses to her classes. But strange things came happening, like how the clothes will multiply and my blazers got dyed...*brr..* So when I gain consciousness, I realised I had my arm in an awkward position, one where my right arm is wrapped over my torso and underneath my left shoulder. As I freed my arm, I could feel the tingling sense of touch returning, the gush of blood through my fingers. I wonder how long have I slept that way and what if I woke up with a paralyzed right arm. Scary chinese new year second day morning...

First day of Chinese new year

CNY is here already! So much have happened that I don't know where to start. Trying to stay up late for the longevity of my parents but I guess wrinkles will catch up earlier with me this way... =p
It's a welcome break for me from work anyway, cos it's been crazy.. staying in office till ten then going home to just check my mails and have to sleep and 11h later, back at office again. Well at least it's a fulfilling time for me =)

Having failed in fulfilling any of my resolutions since the start of the year, perhaps I should now review my resolutions for this new chinese new year:

1. Stay focused and productive at work
2. Hit the gym at least twice a week
3. Lose more weight, healthily!
4. read one book per month
5. Be nice to my family =)

more to add, can't think of any now..

4th day since Lasik surgery

Jan 3 10, Day 4:
Besides occasional dryness, my eyes felt pretty normal. But the rim of glow around the lights never seemed to go away, though as the days go by, the rim is getting thinner and thinner. A good sign..
I was at Amore when my eyes felt as if they were on fire after applying my eyedrops. I nearly panicked, cos no one can actually save me if my corneas are working up.My friend who met me has gone home and the lasik clinic isn't open today... luckily everything was fine after a while...
I went for stretchfit lesson and for the poses that require me to look down, I had to look to my right... the instructor must be wondering why I am so disobedient today..

Day 3:
I forced myself to sleep for 11hrs today, not taking a chance when my eyes hurt so much the day before. I shouldn't have driven at night, the weariness made worse by the difficulty to see well in the dark... thankfully I felt much better today, the pain and exhaustion of my eyes gone. I allowed myself to go bugis to meet my friends for dim sum and some shopping at Sim Lim, a period of 6h before heading back to my nest to rest myself. It's as if someone is watching over me, making sure I have enough rest cos I found a seat on the train when going to bugis and on bus 67 when going home =)

Day 2 and Day 1:
Not supposed to stare at computer for too long and therefore can't blog...
But lasik is really scary... if the doctor said you stay still, you better listen. Don't even try swallowing your saliva...