exams sucks...

haiz... i said i'll blog rite? here it is.... but now on a low note cos today din go that well... my mind was just blank and anxiety gripped me... thoughts slipped in and out of my mind and the worst scenarios played repeatedly in my mind... would i be kicked out of chemical engineering if i fail? haiz... i can only pray for the best now

i really doubt my scholastic skills these days cos i jus cant do well!!! maybe chem engineering is not for me... how how? i cant wait to visit my sch career counsellor... like wat my fren was saying, life lies in discovering ur gift and sharing it with the world but how am i gonna know it? when would i ever know it? or am i ignoring it cos it has no commercial value? i cant stand imagining myself just becoming an employee after i graduate, earn and spend, just like any other human... i want a way out... somehow

Today's judgement day!

today's the day! sigh... i knew the exams will come in the flash of an eye.... and it's less than 3h before the exams, what am i doing here? hahah... well just relaxing my mind... hope that my brains is rejuvenated later! even bought a secret weapon- brands essence of chicken! hahha... if today's exams is ok, then the rest of the exams will be quite fine already :) cos my worst subject is physics! but after so many days of non stop practice, i dare say i have somehow arrive at a much higher level of understanding of the elusive concepts of physics. haha physics is really abstract lo.... forces n heat are afterall, invisible and intangible...l how to do well? i'm just the kinda hands-on person, learn by doing... :P oh well, i shall do well today cos i want to!!!

maybe i'll update my blog later if i do well haha *grinz*

The reality hits.. 2 days b4 exams!

After all the shopping, celebrations and temporary escapes from reality, I realise i got to face the harsh reality-- exams in 2 days! i feel so unfocused these days, just doing what is the minimum... but i really really got to buck up! i wanna get my cap of more than 4.0! hai...

but today wat got me really excited is that i've finally registered for my basic driving theory test! haha... but it's like damn late la 27 dec... cant take my theory lessons b4 the year ends man... no matter wat i'm gonna get my license on the first attempt! shall work really hard :) set my goals high and achieve it! i think i'll just be the happiest gal on earth when i get my license and be able to drive my family around in the new red car! :) cant wait for the new car to come too...

yea that's all... see how sad my life is... nothing but mugging... and some cheap thrills... bleahz

Estee lauder spree!

i'm so happy today.... went to buy a car with my dad today and i can't help dreaming of the day when i get my driving license and drive my friends around! i went town alone after that to get the estee lauder set of cosmetics and i was like walking in circles in town.... went to tangs estee lauder counter and they're out of stock, went to paragon metro and they're outta stock too! luckily, in the end, i went to shaw tower's estee lauder and viola, that's the estee lauder set!! i was so exhausted from walking around on heels that i just told her i want it... hahha but i really adore the make up brushes, blusher, eyeshadow, lipsticks, eyeliner, lipliner and lip glosses!!! it's such a steal hahaha 2 of my xmas wishes accomplished liao :)

hmmm but apparently i never mug much today la... realised that i cant study well in the afternoon cos i'll be fidgetting around...super restless... sighz.... mug yeeling!

Time to mug...

it's time to get down to the books and judgin from today's pace it's not bad... managed to cover more than 5 chapters of stupid tedious organic chem in a day hahah plus time to cycle and shop... i like this kinda life... i am the master of my own time...

anyway, with 17 more days to go b4 zj comes back, i feel rather bored... used to the phone conversations we had everynight and today my sister has a camp, which makes it worse... but i also dun want time to pass quickly cos next fri is my first exams already! and of all subjects, it's physics... well at least i dun have to study french anymore... had the final test yesterday and i dare say i shud do quite fine :) too bad i s/u it hahah sigh... maybe i'll mug french this hols n ace next sem... pull up my cap score haha

these days, my dad have been debating with me over the issue of buying off-peak cars and i finally had to give in to him... he would not listen to my reason and keep assuring me that he can afford it... watever la but if he's really buyin, i'm going to make the best outta it by learning drivingz! hahah tmr i shall head down to the driving centre hehe... i tot i will only drive when i start working... isn't cool if i can drive to sch everyday or drive my frens out? hahaha... for now it's still a distant dream ....

i'm working towards fulfilling my xmas wishes now... hahah gotta get estee lauder make up brushes, blusher and nail polishes etc tmr... that'll mean taking off two items from the list... just like 14 more wishes to be granted? hahha hint hint...