The first exam....

The semester is almost over and duh, the exams are here! jus had an official exam today on programming practical and i felt quite sian already... could compile but then nvr finish the program! hai how many times shud i remind myself that i have to plan the whole damn thing first before i type out the bloody program?? hahaha... nvm most of my frens cant finish too so i'll rest my faith on the power of moderation! hhaha... i went to run at the gym after that and the whole twenty mins i chanted to myself: Forget the unhappiness. have confidence in urself! with the addition of endolphins, it kinda helped me to move on... haiz

it's like nine days to my first exams and i haven started revising! Nvr had I felt so unprepared before man... sighzz.... at least i only have 5 modules to mug for? speaking of which, i jus got back my final test paper for french... i think i scored second highest for grammer but lowest for listening compre again! sighz... i think that will make it a B+ or worse for french this sem... there goes my planned A... :( hopefully econs wun screw up... it wun...

I am so looking forward to le 3 mai! 3rd may! the end of misery... the beginning of freedom and fun :) going to sea sports camp with my og mates in the first week... then going to work, hopefully as a relief teacher... and off i go to france!!1 yea! hehhee.. Wish the 3 months would nvr end man... hahha well, back to muggin for now...

stress...

as the exams near.. my hair are falling a bit more, my eyebags are getting a bit darker and my heart is racing a bit faster... STRESS... jus cant wait for this period to be over n done with...
it doesn't help if i have to combat pms too.. hahah dun really like person in my grp and i was like a bit mean to him/her today but the weird thing is.. i feel bad! my sister says i am a people pleaser and i guess she's right...

anyway, driving's not that fun afterall... not if u have an instructor screaming down ur throat... being called a slow learner etc.... sian sometimes i wished i played more daytona instead of mugging hhaha... or play a ball game then jus run in a circle or a straight line haha... well... maybe drivin will change me to a more alert person haha

i can't believe that i actually threaten to walk out of the relationship when zj broke this promise to me... not even a promise as serious as chasity or fidelity u know... hai i dunno why i do that... he means the world to me and i wanna give me away... things i say jus dun go thru my mind before they get blurted out... so if i offend u in anyway, i dun mean it...

J'irai en France!

Suddenly, there're so many things happening in my life. two weeks ago, i got my french immersion award. then three days ago i got the confirmation to go france to study a term. Now, all i want is a good cap and a scholarship to go france to study! i'll work hard i promise! when the aisles in hall are empty, i am still studying on my own in hall on a saturday :) when i know what i want, i will achieve it...

went out with clara today... it's been a long long time since we met and to commemorate this date, we went to pierce our ears tog! she got her right ear lobe pierced at last and I got my top part of the ear pierced! been wanting to do it for a long long time :) yea before that we ate lunch at pepper lunch.. the food dun taste as good as it did when i was eating for the first time with zj though... i miss him... at least tmr we're going to sentence to sun bathe and eat ben and jerry's tog! :)

i was so busy recently that i did nothing but eat, sleep, go lectures and mug... even though i wanted to blog down my excitement for days, there's always something more impt tat comes first... now that i am waiting for my dad to come and fetch me, i jus grab the opportunity to blog :) I guess my luck's getting a lot better recently... thank god...

but not for some pple that i know... Colonel Bernard, one of the judges at my SAF scholarship interview just passed away due to a heart attack at the recent biathalon. life works in a weird way..., that nice pple often come to no good end... i went to his funeral and returned in full admiration of his commitment towards his wife, religion and work... i would live my life with him as my motivation, and definitely living my day each day like it's my last... life's as unpredictable as it can be...

there're pple in my life that i simply detested or only in acquaintance with... but strangely, one by one, they would come into my life, as if giving me a second chance to change my mind abt them... when i finally open up my heart to them, i usually realised that my misgivings were ill-advised... there's always goodness in pple, and it depends on which part u want to see in them-- the bad or the good. i choose to see the good in them, for it makes my life easier hahah... i'm sometimes amazed by how much i can change in a matter of months.. but well pple change...

My Jc junior... 

Moulin Rouge!

my pri school fren!