exams is gonna be over!

finally, after a long draggy week, exams seem to end soon... haha.. not that i actually studied... only one third of the day is spent on flipping thru some notes , spending the rest packing my house, exercising or shoppin... haha this is life! but i would love to be outside for the entire day... my skin's turning pale from lack of sun exposure! hahha... haven been going for my cca too :P but now i feel like joining rock climbing.. can go mountain trekking or climbing at the end of each sem! tat'll be so fun and excitin... see how next sem maybe i'll join odac

watched harry potter: goblet of fire on sunday and I think it's kinda cliched... it's all so expected... voldermort reborn again... came up with some ploy and then got defeated by harry potter... but the integration of romance is a new one, rather insignificant but nonetheless saccharin sweet haha... potter is so hopeless at dating :p haha...

i'm tired of shopping btw... and that spells disaster cos what else is there to do beside shopping in singapore? eat? but i need to slim down! hahah.. at least for the commissioning ball i'm going on on 19 dec haha... oh dear... i'm supposed to follow a carb-free diet today but i ate bread, muffin and fried rice today! shit.... nvm tmr will be a better day *crossed my finger* anyway, back to the first question, what else is there to do??? sighz *despair*

Suddenly exams's ending very soon!

hahah euphoria suddenly knocks on my door today! hahah... well that's the name of the calvin klein perfume that zj got me... i'm so in love with it... designer fragrance and bottle! ah... hehehe.... i'm going to get him something nice for christmas!!! hehe... anyway, as i was saying, i'm very happy today cos the exams are almost over! the last one is an open book exam so not much and i got one week to mug! heheh.... tmr i'm going shopping with my sis and pass dear clara the perfume i helped her buy :) life's suddenly colourful

after these weeks of exams, i learnt that consistency is really impt.... tried to cram during the last few days and it's really painful... the formulae and concepts just adhere to the surface of my brain and vanish just when the exam begins... my mind is often like a blank sheet as i did my exams... if i'm nervous, it's even worse man... and i realise how useful it is to study with frens though it can be annoying when pple keep asking u questions... but the point is that u learn more and it helps u to remember certain stuff better hahah recalled some jokes that we made abt the chem notes today and it actually came in useful for the exams! hahah... maybe for the last exam i shud meet up with my frens to mug man hahaha... yup i shudn't play so much during exams man... kinda regret that i din focus more... but sometimes the law of diminishing returns really stick to u hahaha so gotta relax la... anyway shall blog again soon! gonna relax... :p

Getting into the mugging mood again

I'm so proud of myself today... I actually almost mugged continously from 9am to 10.30pm today! hahaha... of course i still take time off to shower and eat but being able to sit down for so many hours is a real accomplishment for me haha... dunno why as i grow older, my attention span gets shorter...

anyway, i realise that even as the going gets tough, by just telling yourself you can do it and you have to do it, determination and perseverance will take over... I was really falling asleep at two o'clock, having only completed writing out the list of chemical reactions (which covers two pages) and the dilemma of quitting or fighting on confronted me... Somehow, i just had this resolve to toil on and even went to the macdonalds downstairs my house so i can concentrate. But unfortunately, i still could not escape the noisy environment cos they're repairing the ceilings in macs... but since i was there already, i decided to stay on and go thru all the difficult chemical reactions...

3 hours later... i became familiar with most of the rxns! to think i even wanted to give up mugging for chem... by ten today, i finished all the past yr exam papers and i am pretty sure with the difficult rxns... that feeling of relief is simply incredible... and not to mention the feeling of confidence...

i told my dad that i wanted to give up today and all he has to do was to remind me of how hard i had worked in the past. why give up now? why let the past efforts go to waste? I must continue to fight, as the end is near... i can almost taste the sweetness of success :) just three more papers to go!

exams sucks...

haiz... i said i'll blog rite? here it is.... but now on a low note cos today din go that well... my mind was just blank and anxiety gripped me... thoughts slipped in and out of my mind and the worst scenarios played repeatedly in my mind... would i be kicked out of chemical engineering if i fail? haiz... i can only pray for the best now

i really doubt my scholastic skills these days cos i jus cant do well!!! maybe chem engineering is not for me... how how? i cant wait to visit my sch career counsellor... like wat my fren was saying, life lies in discovering ur gift and sharing it with the world but how am i gonna know it? when would i ever know it? or am i ignoring it cos it has no commercial value? i cant stand imagining myself just becoming an employee after i graduate, earn and spend, just like any other human... i want a way out... somehow

Today's judgement day!

today's the day! sigh... i knew the exams will come in the flash of an eye.... and it's less than 3h before the exams, what am i doing here? hahah... well just relaxing my mind... hope that my brains is rejuvenated later! even bought a secret weapon- brands essence of chicken! hahha... if today's exams is ok, then the rest of the exams will be quite fine already :) cos my worst subject is physics! but after so many days of non stop practice, i dare say i have somehow arrive at a much higher level of understanding of the elusive concepts of physics. haha physics is really abstract lo.... forces n heat are afterall, invisible and intangible...l how to do well? i'm just the kinda hands-on person, learn by doing... :P oh well, i shall do well today cos i want to!!!

maybe i'll update my blog later if i do well haha *grinz*