The reality hits.. 2 days b4 exams!

After all the shopping, celebrations and temporary escapes from reality, I realise i got to face the harsh reality-- exams in 2 days! i feel so unfocused these days, just doing what is the minimum... but i really really got to buck up! i wanna get my cap of more than 4.0! hai...

but today wat got me really excited is that i've finally registered for my basic driving theory test! haha... but it's like damn late la 27 dec... cant take my theory lessons b4 the year ends man... no matter wat i'm gonna get my license on the first attempt! shall work really hard :) set my goals high and achieve it! i think i'll just be the happiest gal on earth when i get my license and be able to drive my family around in the new red car! :) cant wait for the new car to come too...

yea that's all... see how sad my life is... nothing but mugging... and some cheap thrills... bleahz

Estee lauder spree!

i'm so happy today.... went to buy a car with my dad today and i can't help dreaming of the day when i get my driving license and drive my friends around! i went town alone after that to get the estee lauder set of cosmetics and i was like walking in circles in town.... went to tangs estee lauder counter and they're out of stock, went to paragon metro and they're outta stock too! luckily, in the end, i went to shaw tower's estee lauder and viola, that's the estee lauder set!! i was so exhausted from walking around on heels that i just told her i want it... hahha but i really adore the make up brushes, blusher, eyeshadow, lipsticks, eyeliner, lipliner and lip glosses!!! it's such a steal hahaha 2 of my xmas wishes accomplished liao :)

hmmm but apparently i never mug much today la... realised that i cant study well in the afternoon cos i'll be fidgetting around...super restless... sighz.... mug yeeling!

Time to mug...

it's time to get down to the books and judgin from today's pace it's not bad... managed to cover more than 5 chapters of stupid tedious organic chem in a day hahah plus time to cycle and shop... i like this kinda life... i am the master of my own time...

anyway, with 17 more days to go b4 zj comes back, i feel rather bored... used to the phone conversations we had everynight and today my sister has a camp, which makes it worse... but i also dun want time to pass quickly cos next fri is my first exams already! and of all subjects, it's physics... well at least i dun have to study french anymore... had the final test yesterday and i dare say i shud do quite fine :) too bad i s/u it hahah sigh... maybe i'll mug french this hols n ace next sem... pull up my cap score haha

these days, my dad have been debating with me over the issue of buying off-peak cars and i finally had to give in to him... he would not listen to my reason and keep assuring me that he can afford it... watever la but if he's really buyin, i'm going to make the best outta it by learning drivingz! hahah tmr i shall head down to the driving centre hehe... i tot i will only drive when i start working... isn't cool if i can drive to sch everyday or drive my frens out? hahaha... for now it's still a distant dream ....

i'm working towards fulfilling my xmas wishes now... hahah gotta get estee lauder make up brushes, blusher and nail polishes etc tmr... that'll mean taking off two items from the list... just like 14 more wishes to be granted? hahha hint hint...

Tis the season to be merrY!

Guess i'm feeling much better nowadays, after spending some time with my beloved frens, Clara and ZJ! There's nothing that I can't overcome! :) and today after mugging some physics and maths, I realise that it's not as hard as I thought after all... haha maybe I have finally settled down and got used to it. But I am still too restless, can only mug a few chapters a day, not like last time a levels, can really mug damn hard hahah... anyway, this is a very good start...

The weird thing is that people get depression when they suffer from a cold virus attack but it does the opposite for me. Maybe I finally come to terms with my limitations and take things easy. But of course, with ctw project, welfare packs etc off my mind, things start to be a bit merrier and more relaxed... yes and I love holidays! :) Anyway, I am so optimistic that I actually come up with my Xmas wish list already!! here goes...

1. A weave bag from Wisma @ $88
2. Birkenstock sandals!
3. Guess? wallet
4. uv-proof, non-comedogenic, liquid-to-powder kind of foundation
5. smear-proof liquid eyeliner
6. blusher! (how abt Estee Lauder coffret set with satin bag?)
7. more interesting tops :)
8. lingerie :p
9. silver necklace with big, intricate butterfly pendant
10. Uzap massager!
11. spa sessions
12. long permed hair haha
13. eyebrow pencil
14. chocolates from Amway
15. shopping vouchers
16. Levis jeans or jacket
17. make up brushes made of real animal hairs eg horse mane
18. the list goes on...
19. ....
20. ....
21. ....
    to be updated :)
    

yup.... grant my wish, santa!

lost....

I guess I'm getting less and less confident of my academic ability... Is engineering really not for me or am I just not working hard enough? sometimes I would look back and saw how well I used to do but that kind of skill seems to elude me nowadays... Exams is coming like really soon but I don't seem to be able to apply the concepts well enough yet. what has happened to me? Zj tried to console me and be there for me whenever he can but I know I have to work this out myself. And it doesn't help that I kept entertaining the thought of changing my course. I simply feel so lost... Je suis perdue... Nowadays all the modules that I like are actually from courses out of engineering. How ironic... hai... I hope this is just transient and that through the struggles, there emerge a stronger me. But it's hard battling all the negative thoughts all day long... sighz... for every day is a tougher battle :(