HaPpy ChInEsE nEw YeAr!

yea yea yea! i'm home at last... this week gonna be the best week of the year cos i'm only in safti for 2 out of 7 days haha but it feels kinda funny at home cos i'm not being pushed around to do this do that. slacking at home is not my forte so i've been running around doing stuff that i often have no time to in safti :) i get to chat with my parents and joke with them and man, it's therapectic... not that my life in sierra wing isn't great, it's jus so different..

though i've only been in ocs for 2 days since i booked out, a wealth of things had happened... well, mon we only had swimming lesson and it was like no activities the whole day, with lecture and social grooming cancelled. but i still think that was the day when i learnt the most... haha the funniest thing is that it all began with us disobeying the rules and falling asleep in the middle of the afternoon. apparently, my mdm sneaked upstairs and caught us red handed, though none of us knew that she snooped around our rooms. we're knocked out like dead pigs... and out of the blue, she gave us ten mins to go downstairs in our full battle order and i realised immediately that she caught us sleeping! so she reprimanded us and made us do push ups but the most hilarious thing is that i was exempted cos i'm on antibiotics... i told her that i shudn't be excused cos i dun think antibiotics caused drowsiness but she was adamant. as i witnessed my platoon mates get punished, i felt so bad, wanted so much to suffer with them. but most imptly, i realised how i shud have listened to my conscience and prepare the face the consequences that i knew very well would result when we disobeyed orders like this. after a month of being a soldier, i felt quite ashamed that we're still doing things as we like.. do we need more time or do we really lack the discipline? only time will tell... and meanwhile, i shall try my very best to be a good soldier...

to redeem our mistakes, we had to do area cleaning and this time, all of us worked together to clean up the mess we had landed in. after a hell of effort and toil, my mdm was pleased with the state of cleanliness of our bunks and area, smiling once again. it was as if the sleeping incident din take place and my platoon simply rejoiced in pride and happiness... it's really amazing how different things turned out in the end...no matter wat, i hope that this experience will spur us onwards as officers to be :)

then yesterday, we had the worst training nightmare of our life. wat seemed to be a harmless standard obstacle course time trial escalated into a strenuous interval training. basically, it comprises of 3 more rounds of running and crossing the obstacles, 1 round of perfecting the crossing of obstacles, uncountable number of pushups and innumerable times of sprinting to a far wall and back... my heart was beating so fast and my sweat glands working so hard that i had to scream to relieve the lactic acid and pain searing thru my being... sure the adrenaline set in after a while but nothing can soothe the permanent ache in my muscles now... but thru this trying experience, i learnt the true imptance of endurance and determination... without these, i shall jus succumb and fail my test of character. and the other good thing? soc is becoming more like a playgrd! haha...

oh rite, i'm like kinda tired after recounting these enervating memories so i gtg... tmr gonna meet julia and my classmates! cool hahah i love chinese new year haha

liFe In OcS

looks like i got to clear up the cobwebs not only in my bunk but also on my blog. haha been rather unlucky recently... hammered my finger, lost my ic, knocked my head, injured my shin, all in addition to my ankle, knee and elbow injuries... i hope all will change for the better in the new lunar year man... maybe the only good thing is that i'm selected to run for ocs for the navy relay hahah hope i can make it!

well, i dunno if i'm repeating myself, but if i go with the intention of learning to be a better person, i think i have achieved tat... maybe not that gd yet but my endurance level is definitely climbing up... the ability to think fast and act fast... responsibility... i think i'm improving in these areas... but to be honest, i kept harbouring criticisms towards some gals there. some whom i think are trying to break down the integrity of my platoon. i hope one day i can have the courage to stand up and tell them off that if they dun like certain pple, they shud voice it out. at least that person can change for the better and not be kept in the dark, suffering discrimination. from my experience in camp, i realised how hurtful it is to be at the receiving end of gossips, not that i'm the receiver or the completely guiltless party. but really charlene, i know how u feel then :( i'm sorry i din do much to help u

most pple think that gals have the time of their life in army, as compared to the guys... i wun deny that but i think we have our share of woes too... but like never before, i realise the importance of confidence and optimism... if i din have that i think i'll jus succumb... but i'm really happy all these is happening to me, giving me a chance to learn at a dynamic pace... life is short, unpredictable... i'll treasure it

ArMy 123

hey i'm back in one piece, after three weeks of non-stop torture! it's not that bad actually, what with the admin time getting longer day after day... but sadly, i supposed the reprimands from my instructors will never cease, and so are the "knock it down" punishments... nvm what doesn't kill me will make me stronger :)

my captain told me that the stuff we are exposed to now are under the restricted category so i really have no idea what i can include here... all i can say is that the physical trainings are varied, ranging from circuit to taewondo... personally, i prefer combat training the best, a combination of taewondo, akido and karate... bad guys out there watch out!haha... maybe soon i can try sparring with zj haha jus kidding he probably knock me out

most saliently, i learnt tons from the short 3 weeks inside, such as friendships, teamwork, self confidence and so much more... giving of my best, quick thinking all these will go a long way here i realised... even something insignificant like bunk cleaning has its intrinsic value :) u can say army has brought out the philosophical side of me

it had been an eye opening experience to learn from and interact with grads and people older than me... even though singapore priorities paper credits, i realise that nothing beats experience sometimes...

however, there'll be days when i really feel like throwing in the towel and walk away... could even visualise myself doing it... but my optimism and persevere will finally win over... i must think strong and be strong now... nothing can break me :)

apart from army, i realise i really miss my frens and my family... my sister is sick yet i cant attend to her... then my bf is damn bored and i cant be with him... frens have been asking me when i'm booking out but my time is so limited... sighz i need "splitting trick" man all i hope now is that time will fly and 11 mar comes soon :)

MeEt ThE fOcKeRs :)

I dunno if anyone reads my blog anymore but i have nothing to do so shall blog anyway... i watched meet the fockers today and it's way better than kongfu hustle la... pure humour not some sadistic stupid stuff haha... and its moral is like it's always better to be ur true self and have trust, esp in ur close ones... quite sweet la :) quite glad that i get to watch a nice movie before i go bmt haha god knows when i can enjoy again... anyway i'm looking forward to it cos i know some great pals inside and i gonna get $1800+ a month! hahah free board and lodgin somemore haha

before movie i ran with zj at bedok reservoir cos this sat i got interconstituency race there.... it was really motivating cos i clocked 21min for 4.3k which is 8 mins off my timing last yr hehe :) hope i can perform even better on sat man! zj shall be my source of inspiration and determination! my last competitive run before bmt haha it seems like my life ends on 10 jan sometimes haha but it's not like i cant drop out if i cant take it so it's a win win situation haha

for the rest of my 6 days as a civilian, i gonna meet 2 frens or more a day so that i wun miss them too much in camp! hahah gonna meet lai hung tmr afternoon then clara at night... thur i got army briefing and then going shopping with my army frens... fri gonna meet up with charlene and go for hcjc campfire at nite... sat got race and then i hope to meet li xiang and daniel... finally sun i hope to spend some more last min time with zj.... and off i go :p

FaReWeLl...

I think yesterday's farewell went quite well hahah *bhb* but there's almost insufficient food... luckily my mum provided us with more fruits and snacks *phew* so glad that I managed to get everything done before anyone arrived. for this occasion, i actually revamped my study... the photo albums were strewn all over a spare sofa and within two days, i transferred photos in old albums into those new adhesive ones with the help of my sis. it sounded easy but believe me our backs and eyes were aching from the onerous task. had to sweep the floor, tidy my room and lotsa spring cleaning stuff... zj agreed that my house had a face lift haha :)

I was quite worried at first that they had nothing to do.... but they really know how to keep themselves entertained so I was so relieved! haha all i did was to serve them food and clean up after them. played a game of bridge with the girls... but as usual, the guys and girls sat at separate areas... when yoke yun finally arrived, I shown the class the photos slides that I managed to finish only the morning before haha not too bad i hope :p

they continue to entertain themselves till 6pm.. jing song and jeremy ransacked and turned my comp upside down to play oac and track videos while the girls gathered at the piano to play and sing... quite amusing la haha :) and the guys kept teasing me abt my saf scholarship and calling me mam... gonna miss the class when i go bmt...

oh and my mum met zj at last.. i tot she wun recpgnise him but she remembers his look from the photos that she chanced upon... then she joked that he kept calling her aunty hahah so funny man... it's nice that my mum knows liao... i wonder if i'll ever see his parents haha gotta go! hope to blog again before i book in!