Back for the long haul

Been away for more than 2 weeks since June 19th in Europe... felt like I'm looking at life with a clearer pair of glasses now that I'm back.. It's amazing how much a break can do for a broken soul. But with greater clarity doesn't always mean my compass in life is now pointing to the right direction. I still need to figure out, anxious to find out what I really want to do. Not gonna be easy...

Some interesting things my sis wrote on her blog

http://eleventhh.blogspot.com/

lost.. like a fish in the sea

two weeks since i blogged... my life feels like it needs a good clean up, like the state of my room. what i've been doing to my room has been just throwing the litters away that are in the way, taking up the dirty laundry and wash only when the pile gets unsightly... but nothing constructive gets done and i feel like crap... need a plan but how do i start doing it and not be overwhelmed by the everyday things....

Carpe Diem

Everyday the seconds would melt into mins, and hours vanish. Suddenly I felt myself being dragged along, by the strong waves of time that so brutally tug in all directions. Where's that anchor? I need to find it soon, before I find myself bobbing endlessly in this ocean of never-ending endeavors.

A long weekend.. gone

All good things will come to an end... indeed... the 3 days of long hols are over and the horrid-some week is able to begin. Don't ask me how I know, I just know. Need to have a chat with my boss, who even appeared in my dreams haunting me, about the strategies I gonna adopt in the next few months *shudder* plus all the brochures I need to produce... crap... Gonna polish up the Voice of employees slides, which is a nightmare.  .But luckily had some divine help from my friend =) who is a some presentation slides god.. amazing...

Some things to look forward to next week? Running tomorrow with friends from company... Half day off on wed to have lunch with Sis and movie (hopefully)... France/ Italy/ Switzerland trip planning with Cat... dinner and dessert at Dampsey on Sat.. But more tuitions on Sunday =(

Guilt and remorse

In a moment I would never forget, I closed a door in my life. I realize the worst feeling in life isn't about the failures experience at work or in school but when you disappoint someone...

As an avalanche of emotions hit me like a tsunami against the peaceful shore, engulfing me... When will it subside? Or will this make me feel less guilty, that at least it makes me still human, not someone I have changed into that I can't even recognize.

A vital Need to clear sleep debt

I can't believe how quickly time has passed by... it's almost 3 months since I began working at my second company... But the sleep debt is certainly accumulating, with tuitions and meetups with friends on weekends... now another old student is requesting that I recommence tuition with him. How can I say no? sigh... I need $$ man...

Birthday Wishes!

Oh no... another year has passed by and me, another year older... No matter what, I'll still try to look at the situation optimistically, and thus my birthday wishes!

1. A new branded bag
2. Sk II Facial
3. A new watch
4. Shopping vouchers!
5. A good facial moisturiser
6. Apple iphone
7. A new nice leather wallet
8. Salsa classes

Yea that's pretty much it... =) 

Photos from CNY

Almost Killed my right hand

I also paralysed my right forearm during sleep this morning! My brain was giving up some kind of subtle signals, conjuring heart-racing type of nightmares. I dreamt that my sister and I were holidaying at this old house, where there are shuttle buses to her classes. But strange things came happening, like how the clothes will multiply and my blazers got dyed...*brr..* So when I gain consciousness, I realised I had my arm in an awkward position, one where my right arm is wrapped over my torso and underneath my left shoulder. As I freed my arm, I could feel the tingling sense of touch returning, the gush of blood through my fingers. I wonder how long have I slept that way and what if I woke up with a paralyzed right arm. Scary chinese new year second day morning...

First day of Chinese new year

CNY is here already! So much have happened that I don't know where to start. Trying to stay up late for the longevity of my parents but I guess wrinkles will catch up earlier with me this way... =p
It's a welcome break for me from work anyway, cos it's been crazy.. staying in office till ten then going home to just check my mails and have to sleep and 11h later, back at office again. Well at least it's a fulfilling time for me =)

Having failed in fulfilling any of my resolutions since the start of the year, perhaps I should now review my resolutions for this new chinese new year:

1. Stay focused and productive at work
2. Hit the gym at least twice a week
3. Lose more weight, healthily!
4. read one book per month
5. Be nice to my family =)

more to add, can't think of any now..

4th day since Lasik surgery

Jan 3 10, Day 4:
Besides occasional dryness, my eyes felt pretty normal. But the rim of glow around the lights never seemed to go away, though as the days go by, the rim is getting thinner and thinner. A good sign..
I was at Amore when my eyes felt as if they were on fire after applying my eyedrops. I nearly panicked, cos no one can actually save me if my corneas are working up.My friend who met me has gone home and the lasik clinic isn't open today... luckily everything was fine after a while...
I went for stretchfit lesson and for the poses that require me to look down, I had to look to my right... the instructor must be wondering why I am so disobedient today..

Day 3:
I forced myself to sleep for 11hrs today, not taking a chance when my eyes hurt so much the day before. I shouldn't have driven at night, the weariness made worse by the difficulty to see well in the dark... thankfully I felt much better today, the pain and exhaustion of my eyes gone. I allowed myself to go bugis to meet my friends for dim sum and some shopping at Sim Lim, a period of 6h before heading back to my nest to rest myself. It's as if someone is watching over me, making sure I have enough rest cos I found a seat on the train when going to bugis and on bus 67 when going home =)

Day 2 and Day 1:
Not supposed to stare at computer for too long and therefore can't blog...
But lasik is really scary... if the doctor said you stay still, you better listen. Don't even try swallowing your saliva...

Changes that took my breath away

Just a signature above the dotted line, a couple of security clearance... and I'm all set.. to start the new year afresh...

Or maybe it's not that easy... in this fight to find back myself... to put things right, locate the environment that I can see myself grow, learn and succeed... At that juncture of breaking away, tears have flown like a broken string of pearls... a part of me yearning to stop the change that is going to affect not just myself but those have been kind around me... But I must stay strong...

And I survived, that emotional ordeal that I did not expect...
Like a newborn, I open my eyes, startled to find the world outside looking rosier than I dreamt it to be... A new chapter of my life shall now begin... With high hopes, I make my first baby step into this tantalizing world of the unknown challenges and unexpected surprises...

I will survive, yet again...

Merry Christmas and Happy new year my friends!

An Arduous path to Real Run Race

On the 8 November 2009, my team members of Triathlon and Distance Running (TDR), an interest group of the SMRT Sports & Recreation Club, participated in the New Balance 15km Real Run Corporate Relay, at Changi Aviation Centre. My team emerged victorious, achieving 4th position in the corporate category, ahead of other strong teams from LTA, SAF MP and Temasek Polytechnic.

I was one of the TDR team members who participated in the relay, and was thrilled to achieve my personal best of 1 hour and 19 mins at the competition. It was a relief when I finally crossed the finishing line, as long distance running has never been my forte. Back in the school days, I would usually compete in events that involved five or less kilometres of running.

My trainings for the race began officially ten weeks prior to the race date. With a tight work schedule, it was definitely challenging to stick to the plan, which comprised of one day of long run and two other days of short, fast runs as well as gym sessions. I have adapted the training from the Hal Higdon’s plan that I found online.

However, no matter of training would have aptly prepared me for the race itself. After 5km of smooth sailing running, my hamstrings started to protest. I just couldn’t go as fast as I willed myself to. Other runners were simply passing me by in flocks. Things did not look good then. I told myself that there was no way I could turn back, the only way is to go forward, which I did. After what seemed like eternity, I finally reached the finishing line and it all seemed not so difficult after all. Life’s like a long distance run, you just got to take the pain in your stride when the going gets tough. The finishing line is just in front of you. Don’t give up.

My Xmas wish list!

For my loved ones who are cracking their heads on what to get me for xmas, here's a help list hehe:

1. A new branded work watch
2. demologica daily microexfoliant
3. A book like 'journey to the east' and 'have a little faith'
4. sports waterbottle 500ml
5. Good earphones
6. Nokia E63 handphone pouch
7. nice and couchy netbook sleeve

Will update the list when I remember what else I want. Merry Xmas everyone!

Sleepless night

Not insomnia this time.. it's work again

So I risked 6h of my beauty sleep, fighting zee monsters from 1am to 7am on thur morning, watching people go about their work, trying to pick up bits and pieces. secret codes, telling glances... not something easy to pick up in the wee hours of the morning... I just shrugged and sat, then stood and walked around... feeling out of place and unwanted.. when it was time to go, I could tell all heaved a sigh of relief... that all will go back to normal for them.. wat a morning..

I went back to sleep and it was an undisturbed one till noon... ate fruits to fill myself, an act to counter the sinful indulgences that I allowed myself at 7am-- mac sausage muffin... Went to bt panjang, only to get dua and then came home to do misc stuff, before succumbing to sleep again..

perhaps the most meaningful thing I have done today is to drag my lazy feet to amore for an hr of fat blasting workout of kardio sculpt =) had duck rice for dinner(with my darling mum and sis) and I sincerely hope it's not 600 calories as the nutritionist says..

We passed by the neighbourhood shops and realized that a pet shop is opening soon! My sis and I started discussing about the dog we would buy, childhood dreams flooding our minds again? Would I get one? Can I be a good owner? I'm a little afraid of more responsibilities right now... gonna hit the sack!

Sick at Home

Finally an MC since Sept, I'm so proud of myself. I had it bad this time, sore throat, blocked nose, itchy throat and not to mention fever since Fri, when I had to stand 2 hrs for flag day donations and then another 2hrs for counting people at my company's public event.

After the prize giving ceremony for the Global Entrepreneurship Week, I was deadbeat. Just concussed on the bus whenever my butt hit the seat...dun be fooled by my healthy look in the pic.. Gosh... I almost couldn't get off the bus. It was like I went into hibernation mode.
For the next 2 days, the flu virus just raged on in my body... On Sat, I simply slipped in and out of consciousness. Ate bland porridge for lunch and green healthy yong tau foo for dinner... Sunday's menu was no better, bland fish porridge for dinner... maybe the good thing that comes out of it is that I would have lost weight hahah though I haven't weigh myself lately... should be la...

By Sun night, I dun feel well enuff for work and took an Mc... It turned out to be a restful yet fruitful day. Got the plumber in to fix the washing machine tap.. It turned out that the washing machine is fine, just that the tap is wrong... hehe v happy... and start planning for the new year... 2010 here I come!

French!

Le 9 Decembre, je vais prendre l'examen de francais donc je vais écrire mon blog en francaise tous les jours. Il y auras une translation de blog en anglais aussi. Alors, premièrement, je absolutement deteste Dimarche parce que je vais travailler demain. Il n'y a pas jamais assez de temps pour les choses que je voudrais faire, comme aller au cinema et faire un promenade à la plage.  Peut-etre, la raison pour les sentiments est que je n'aime pas le travail que je fais. Mais si je ne travail pas, je n'ai pas l'argent. C'est la vie.

Je ne sais pas quoi mais hier, je suis tres fatiguee parce que j'ai me couche pendant 11 heures! Quand je se levé,  j'ai seulment pris ma petite dejeuner et apres, arrangé la chambre. J'ai une class de yoga à 2:30 apres-midi pour une duree d'une heure et demie. Apres la classe, j'ai une rendez-vous à Somerset à 6:30 pour le diner avec les amis. Nous avons les cuisines Thaï pour le plat principal et les gateux aux fruits pour le dessert. Tous été tres bien!

On the 9th of Dec, I'm going to take my french exam so I will always be writing my blog in french from now on. There will also be a translation in english, like what I am doing for this entry. So firstly, I hate Sunday, cos tmr I need to go work! There is never enough time for doing the things that I like, such as going to the cinema and strolling on the beach. Perhaps, the reasons for the feelings that I am having is that I simply don't like the work I am doing... But if I don't work, I don't have the money! That's life.

I also dunno why but I was just so tired yesterday that I slept for 11 h! When I woke up, I only had time to take my breakfast and tidy up my room. After that, I have a yoga class at 2:30 pm for a duration of one and a half hours. After class, I have an appointment in Somerset at 6:30 pm for dinner with my supper club friends. We had Thai cuisine for the main course and fruit tarts for dessert. All were very good!

Love is...

Got inspired over the weekend...

Love is...
Knowing that someone will always look after you
Fetch you from where you are when it rains
Naturally thinking in your shoes
Waiting for you no matter how late it is into the night
tells you that you smell great though you last showered hours ago

I just watched Gossip Girl and I crossed my fingers... that I will never betray love for it's never worth it..

Just came back from a dinner with my best sports pals, Aileen and Charlene. it's Charlene's 23rd birthday today and it's amazing how long we have known each other! 7 yrs! I'm feel blessed by the special friendship we share =) I was so hungry after my 3.5km run at Amore that I just gobbled down dinner at Noodle House without taking photos with them =( haha but we enjoyed the
1. Special Congee, huge and favored just right
2. Wonton noodles,the noodles is alright but the fried wantons are gigantic and the steamed ones are succulent with juicy prawns
3. Beef Horfun is not so good though cos the horfun were stuck together. Nevertheless, the prawns and all were good =)
yummy dinner... we went shopping around Centrepoint, absorbed in our world, as the passerbys flowed from different directions, all around us. There is nothing more lovely or precious as friendship.

I had a more sinful round of dinner yesterday, with my darling, for passing his driving test on the first try! Hear this, he only got 8 demerit points! super zai la... We went to celebrate at Intercontinental, Olive tree cos they are having promotion right now. 1 for 1 and we only paid about 55 in all... the spread was superb, to say the least. We swallowed down:

1. about 10 oysters each, fresh and juicy
2. 5 fresh tasting salmon sushi
3. crispy salmon pizza
4. fried tempura prawns, done golden and delightful
5. sausage in small cute dishes
6. creamy cod fish, smooth and good
7. dhal and chicken curry, these dishes are a bit dry
8. fragrant butter rice
9. strawberries with chocolate fondue
10. oozing chocolat fondant, tiramisu, chocolate alcohol cake, sorbet...
11. everything else that I can't name or recall but it's a truly unforgettable dinner buffet =)

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